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BIO/EDUCATION
PERSONAL PHOTOS
"THE CUDAK FAMILY" PHOTO

LYRIC SHEETS TO EarthHeart.org SONGS  
1. Wind Rain Rock
   2. Earth is Calling
   3. Cast a Dream
   4. Eternal Moment
   5. Rime and Crime

 

JOURNAL
("Re-member-ing")

JOURNAL ENTRYS

"To go against the dominant thinking of your friends, of most of the people you see every day, is perhaps the most difficult act of heroism you can perform." - Theodore H. White

"The greater part of what my neighbors call good I believe in my soul to be bad, and if I repent of anything, it is very likely to be my good behavior. What demon possessed me that I behaved so well?"- Thoreau

"Rouse up, O young men of the new age! Set your foreheads against the ignorant hirelings in the camp
the court and university, who would if they could, for ever depress mental and prolong corporeal war".-William Blake

"The first man who, having enclosed a piece of ground, bethought himself of saying 'this is mine', and found people simple enough to believe him, was the real founder of civil society...might not anyone have saved mankind by pulling up the stakes...and crying to his fellows, beware of listening to this impostor! You are undone if you once forget that the fruits of the earth belong to us all, and the earth itself to nobody". -Rousseau

"We shall not abolish lying by refusing to tell lies, but by using every means at hand to abolish classes". -Sartre

"Anarchism aims to strip labor of its deadening, dulling aspect, of its gloom and compulsion. It aims to make work an instrument of joy, of strength, of color, of real harmony, so that the poorest sort of a man should find in work both recreation and hope." - Emma Goldman

[Civilization's Inherent Suicidal End / Death Wish] “From the day when battery-run voices began broadcasting old speeches to battery-run listeners, the beast has been talking to itself. Having swallowed everyone and everything outside itself, the beast becomes its own sole frame of reference. It entertains itself, exploits itself and wars on itself. It has reached the end of its progress, for there is nothing left for it to progress against except itself"..."There is hardly anything left to produce here outside of the spectacle itself". (Kevin Tucker-Spectacle of the Symbolic).”-Fredy Perlman

The typical modern city is surrounded by a circle of affluent suburbs, eating its way outward, like ringworm, leaving the so-called inner city desolate, filthy, ugly, and dangerous.-Wendell Berry

"The break with patriarchal values is final. We are moving toward the end of the exploitation of nature, of work, of trade, of predation, of separation from the self, of sacrifice, of guilt, of the forsaking of happiness, of the fetishizing of money, of power, of hierarchy, of contempt for and fear of women, of the misleading of children, of intellectual dominion, of military and police despotism, of religions, of ideologies, of repression and the deadly resolutions of psychic tensions. This is not a fact I am describing, but an ongoing process that simply requires from us increased vigilance, awareness, and solidarity with life. We have to reground ourselves in order to rebuild—on human foundations—a world that has been ruined by the inhumanity of the cult of the commodity."-Raoul Vaneigem

 


“The rule of no realm is mine, but all worthy things that are in peril, as the world now stand, those are my care. And for my part, I shall not wholly fail in my task... in the days to come".—Tolkien ..."If this be indeed the hour in which I lift up my lantern, it is not my flame that shall burn therein. Empty and dark shall I raise my lantern, and the guardian of the night shall fill it with oil and he shall light it also...It was but yesterday we met in a dream.... and our dream is over... and if our hands should meet in another dream, we shall build another tower in the sky". -Gibran

Yes! We are Created in the Image of God, we have been "thought up" by Creation...We are ..."The Dream of the Earth" (THOMAS BERRY). To be in the World is to be within the Mind of God : "Creation is not a hurdle on the road to God, it is the road itself".-(MARTIN BUBER)..."through which we enter into DIVINE SPIRIT: The organic semiotic textures of sensorial rhythms--energy/feeling/viability/vitality/fluidity/reciprocity---that come up out of the unconscious, that are the very spiritual signatures of the near and distant Earth-Universe process itself."-mtc


TO: journal_8_10.htm

TO: JANUARY 2011 JOURNAL

 


 


LYRIC SHEETS TO

"SOIL FOR THE SOUL"
by Michael Telluris Cudak: EarthHeart.org

 

 

WIND RAIN ROCK
By EarthHeart.org (player)

When the morning sun
Lifts you from your dream.
And you hear this song
Rising from the distance.

Calling you, calling me, from these circles
Of restless leaves,
To our home among these mountains
And evergreens.

Where there is a place
In the song of a sparrow,
To loose your soul
From thoughts about tomorrow.

Where there's a mist
Down by the pool Where the river falls.
Where the children of dreams
All cast away their sorrow.

 

And there is a mountain
Risen higher than the sky.
Where some men speak of visions...
And tremble as they try. [Earth isn't this what you....
I'm going to this country...]
And in the evening You can hear
The wild waters of the sea
Get transposed by this river
Into a summer symphony. And under the moon
The goddess of love and fertility
Will sing her songs of life
In this perfect harmony.

Then we can cry With the sky:
I AM... Yes! ... I Really AM!

[ End Refrain ]
Sitting on a mornings cavalry of clouds
Reigning in the skies.

Whipped by these whispering winds
On a stratus sled.
And just below this rainbow
Of glittering glacial rock.

Just don't, I don't, ever want to let it stop.

Cause I'm just this Song
Of the Sun... This Wind, Rain, Rock...

Where all just this Song,
Of the Sun This Wind, Rain, and Rock.

[Can insert Rilke:
"Earth isn't this what you want..."]

EARTH IS CALLING: (FEEL YOUR WAY OUT! )  
By EarthHeart.org (player)
(This is the Fast Rock Version--Not used on this Site)

Clouds
Clouds
ARE FILL'IN THE SKY.....
Clouds
Driving From Another Side
SHAK'in   FEATHERS......
Breaking   every Teather...
Givin Rides to Another   Side

Leaves ARE Fall'in
A Breeze   is Call'in
Fog's   Break'in...
River's   Wait'in
Your    Awaken'in  
Your    Awaken'in
THE TURN'IN 5 THE BURN'IN (Softer...build)

Time to Change...
Re--Arrange...
Don't Blame
Be Un-tame
Find Your Brain
Get off   Main
End the Game  
Shut the Drain'
Stop the Train
Through the Flame EARTH 5 IS CALL'IN
Everything is Fall'in

(Improv Rap)
WE'VE ALL BEEN BLINDED  
/ DE-SENSE-ITIZED /MADE POWERLESS   ...
SINKING- TWISTED........
IN THIS IN-DUST-RIAL GUTTER
TIED…….TETHERED
TO THE TROUGH OF SAFEWAY,
BANK AMERICA GAS STATION
DUMP…MORTAGE…TELLA SCREEN ….
AND ALL THIS USELESS ……
PUTRID LANGUAGE XXX
THEY HOSE IT IN………..
JUST LIKE WERE PIGS……,,,,,,
AND SPRAY IT …….ALL OVER…YOU
SO YOU CAN’T…. SEE….SMELL…
TASTE…TOUCH OR…..
FEEL YOUR WAY OUT!

YOU GOT TO:
Change Lanes
Change YOUR Name
Start to Train …
Go to Spain …..
Campaign ….
Inflame …..
Be a Pain
Break the Chain
Break the Game
Drive it through the Flame

(SOFTER: Pick the Cords:)
Earth …. …Earth is NOW Call’in…
Everything...is Fall’in …

Wake me ……Shake …me…… …
Take me…
MAKE ME OVER
PLEASE
Wake me ……Shake …me…… …
Take me…
MAKE ME OVER….

(Pick)
Morning Star's Ecstatic  
Mountains SLIPP'in   YOU the Magic
Beauty's   gone   FA-NAT-ic
Bursting SPELLS every En-ig'MAT-ic

IT'S JUST    Clouds
Slipp'in in " NEW SKY"..
Clouds 2
Cross/in   the Great Divide
SHAK'in   FEATHERS......
Breaking Every Teather...
Givin Rides 2 to the other.......Side

Fog's   Break'in...
River's   Wait'in  
Your    Awaken'in
Fog's   Break'in...
River's   Wait'in  
Your    Awaken'in
THE TURN'IN THE BURN'IN-...
THE TURN'IN THE BURN'IN

YOU GOT TO:
Wake me ......Shake ...me...
Take me...
MAKE ME.....OVER....
PLEASE...
Wake me ......Shake ...me...
Take me...
MAKE ME.....OVER....5 FADE.......

Clouds are Filling the Sky
Clouds Way Up High
I Can Feel"em
I'v been Waiting
A Long, Long Time
For these Clouds to be Fill'in the Sky

CAST A DREAM
By EarthHeart.org (player)

THINK’IN…..
……. How Great 2bm7…….. it is …………..
To Feel the Sun………Rising the Ridge
Think’in … How ………..Wonderful
To Feel ……the SONG’ …….of the Night
DANCE ……. THE MORNING …… LIGHT

To Awaken …….by Summ’er….Pastels …………
Softly Skipp’in Right…. on By
OVERTAK-EN’D …. ……by SCENT’ED SPELLS
SONNET –SOARING ….SAFF-FRON SKIES

Lost 5a………In THAT EARLY ……MORN’IN
Where your Dream …Meet that Moment of DAWN’ING
Feel’in I’m Finally ………BE-LONG’IN….….
TO ^………MY DEEPEST LONG’IN ……….

RISE BE_FORE … Morn’inS……… Light
Cast A DREAM INTO YOUR Starry Night
TIE IT …..TO Your Simple Kite……….. And
Watch it CLIMB the Early Mornin Light (with BELLS)


AND Try An …. Catch the Wind….
Till You STUMBLE to the Ground Dance the LIGHT of the Moon
To the Tune…..of a TWINKEL …STAR……Climb …to the Top …of the Hill……..
LAUGH …Till… Ya TUMBLE Down Sail … a Southern Wind ….
Vanish … THE…HORIZON LineYOU GOT TO…

Ring THEM Bells ….
On the Hill….(new7f -M7)
Beat your Drum … On the Plane
Sing Your Song ……..
At the Break 2bm7……..of Every Dawn…
And I Think…
We’d GET ALONG…….

RHYTHM BREAK
Try An …. Catch the Wind….
Till You STUMBLE to the Ground …..
Dance the LIGHT of the Moon
To the Tune…..of a TWINKEL …STAR……

 

Climb …to the Top …of the Hill……..
LAUGH …Till… Ya TUMBLE Down
Sail … a Southern Wind ….
Vanish … THE…HORIZON Line

I’v been to Lascaux, Al-ta-mier-a, Jericho….Down Every Road of Rome, (Am7f1)There’s Nothn there…for Your Soul, XX
LIKE this Light ...Like this Light...Like this Light
(7f ARPEGIO BELLS)

You Got to Rise Be_fore … the Morn’ing’s……… Light
Cast a DREAM INTO YOUR Starry Night
TIE IT TIGHT ……TO Your Simple Kite……….. And
Watch it ClimbX 3fC/m……. THE Early……. Light

ETERNAL MOMENT
By EarthHeart.org (player)

There's only the moment
That's all you can_ever be
Taking care of the moment
Takes care of eternity

[(So) Don't run
Don't hide Don't ever, take the bride
Cause time Is waiting for the bride  

Prophets, Sages
(All) Fallen by the Way
Wine'ing, dine'ing
Nothing more say
They wont last
Where starting the fast
Taking care of the moment
Take's care of the cast

(IN) These pan-demics, of dis- EASE
Taking every moment
While I'm down on my knees
And there Watering Time_
with a reservoir
While time it self
Is melting away

Eternal moment
Only place to BE to SEE  
Where   time can Tell You
Who you ARE   to BE...

Between the Stars (and) Embers
Where there's No History
Where the bride of Destiny
Is The door to Eternity............................. Eternal Moment

But Time is where you'll go to HIDE
When you NO LONGER FEEL inside
Time, is where you'll go to CRY
When you CANT SEE inside

Now you   No-longer FEEL the Ground
So Their Staging YOU ...as this Clown
Getting Caste, Powdered Down With this BRIGHT..QUIET-FROWN.... of Desperation

Eternal Moment
Only place   to BE...To SEE
Where time can Tell You
Who you ARE to BE

But Time
is where the Sophistry,
Of the University,
Takes away_your   Destiny
And Now you... no-longer See
(The)   MomentS   of Epiphany

 

ETERNAL MOMENT:
Between the Stars and Embers (Kohak)
Where there's No History
Where the bride of Destiny
Is The door to Eternity........
Eternal Moment

Its all in the Genetic Script
Sung by The Telluric CAST
Confirmed by Intuition (Bergson)
Not (any)   Inhibition
You can Get In-form-a-tioned
By Earth's Con-for-ma-tion.
Be-ing   in Re-la-tion
To the Grand Con-ste-llation.

I'm Condemned to be Free (Sartre) Allured by the Courage to Be, (Tellich) Then You will Be...
your Destiny

Eternal moment
Only place to BE to SEE  
Where   time can Tell You
Who you ARE   to BE ...

ETERNAL MOMENT

RIME AND CRIME
By EarthHeart.org
(player)

1.Stuck on this Corner ….Spinn’in my Time
Draggin this Chain Through Every Cave of Crime
Breakin the Neon’s……….Mak’in Us Blind
ON Every Lotion … Potion ….Motion …I can Find
Oh Tell me Something……We All Need to Know

2.Slamm’ed into Nietzsche……Be-tween Two-Nothin’s
Wraped in Bourbon……….Scrambl’in…. Some’thin
He Was ………… Dream’in…………Scream’in into…
Rock’in-Heal’in …… Rhythm’S… of Rain
Far From The Rack-Wheel ……Every Son of ….. Cain

3.Turned on to Wall Street
You Were Trad’in….In the Tower
Tables turning over … …….
to this Broker Super-Power.
Every thing is down to…….Rubble_Babble
I’m down on my knees Cry’in into……A Candles, Flowers
Tell me Something……....WE All Need to Know

 

4.Born…in-this-Age ……… of……..Reason
Dying…to… Every Systemic ….. Treason
Every One’s Wav’in a’way Their…… Freedom
Parading… Every…………… Lesion
Tell me Something……………. We All Need to Know

5.Stuck on this Corner …..Spinning my Mind
Drag’in This Chain Through All This Waist of Time
Gon’na Break the Neon’s…..Mak’in Us Blind
ON Every Lotion… Potion … Motion….I can Find
Tell me Something……Just Let it Rock and Roll



[SHORT BIO/HISTORY/EDUCATION: My primary education began on fetal-alcoholism (FAE) in Brooklyn, NYC, 1949. My sister and I were eventually taken to an orphanage for 2 years. Then on to an immoral money-mortgaging molesting foster home (my sister) for 8 years. On the very day, of my 14th Birthday, I celebrated freedom and "ran away". My sister conspired giving me the only five-dollars she had. I stole a bicycle from the neighborhood and peddled from NYC to the Capitol steps and White House (D.C.) where someone stole it from me. I then hitchhiked throughout the South for a year, stealing food all along the way, sleeping in the woods and abandoned cars. I got picked up by the law in an oppressed section of Atlanta, Georgia. I was sent to Warwick and Otisville State Reform Schools for Boys (NY) for 2 years. I got released in 1965 to the Chelsea YMCA (Manhattan, NYC) to then become a taxicab driver. I lived a 20 minute walk to Greenwich Village--I walked into one of the most intense centers of social-political REVOLUTION of my lifetime, and joined it, finding so many others disappointed with the world too!

In 1968 My Mother Emily Commited Suicide (On "MOTHER'S DAY") ...

Then a Totalitarian Regime (1968) took me over: The US Army--a long nightmare--where I performed Military Burials as a flag folding pallbearer for Vietnam Casualties out of Ft. Dix, N.J...After discharge I returned to a lesser insanity back at my taxicab job in NYC. I then quit it ritually, on January 1st 1973, to hitchhike to California where the pathologies of civilization were eventually transposed into the beautiful celestial stars and wilderness of the TRINITY ALPS and MARBLE MOUNTAINS, working for the US Forest Service seasonally on a helicopter during school breaks. ..................

Then the Suicide of my sister Maureen stopped everything--another moment of the deepest pain I could ever have.

I fell deeper into my chronic depression and antagonism with the social-political institutions of history--where I positioned the blame--and droped out of society, becoming even more recluse from where I already was at. But Grace eventually turned my attention--at a campus book sale--to reveal a single used book by Paul Shepard: NATURE AND MADNESS . It changed the direction of my thinking and pessimism. I had been in the middle of this "quiet-desperation" (Thoreau) wandering through 11 college campuses ("formally" registered to 9) over a 15-year period and rummaging through every formal and sit-in graduate class looking for the foundations of a authentic humanistic morality--not from any otherworld revelation, aesthetic sedation, or dogma. Paul Shepard had returned me back to a thread of thinking that I received from Rousseau (that man is "born good," but civilization and religion corrupts him, 1749, the Academy of Dijon) but he (Paul Shepard) rooted it in a solid biology and anthropology: that morality is a natural organic genesis belonging to the community and it's relationship to the Creation (Epigenesis/"The Dance of Neoteny and Ontogeny", NATURE AND MADNESS, 1982).....Well, I left all my units un-matriculated and walked away with what amounts to be a prestigious green-anarchist degree.

I did eventually go on to "Three Wild-er Universe-ities", on the top of 3 different Wilderness fire-lookout towers, for over a decade (US Forest Service). I got to Read, Think, and "Live" my Graduate Dissertation at an elevation (6971 Ft.) where I could see and experience ..."being part of everything, not separate at all" (Shug-Alice Walker)]

     
Maureen 1980...........Holy Communion Dress 1956     ...............Brooklyn NYC,1950...................................Mother 1949 (at 19).......Halloween 1973

EarthHeart.org
Was Born on Christmas Eve 2009
IN MEMORY OF: Maureen Eve (1947-1980) and Emily Eva Cudak/Budris (1927-1968)

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